Wake Home

That was my first time celebrating Halloween and it turned out to be meaningful. If I wasn't a leo, I wouldn't have experienced this. I hope the kids enjoyed themselves, at least I did :) I was told that they are HIV + patients before I visited Wake Home, and the worst part was, they didn't know about it. Lol.

They just looked like any other normal kids but they are somehow different :( Before meeting them, we had to choose a kid and buy a watch for him/her...I chose a down syndrome patient. Her name is Vinothin and she is the youngest among the children in wake home, 7 years old. I selected her because I thought the others wouldn't choose her, I was right. Hmm... I didn't get to communicate with her lol she didn't understand at all. Saliva dripped all over her with an unpleasant smell, hmm...and she threw my halloween present in a perfect curved motion when I gave it to her. Zzz, to be honest, I was abit disappointed but I know I couldn't expect more. I left early and had my dinner with dad outside (fyi, the food there was...ugh...meant for draculas XP, their appearance were so 'tempting' hahas, green soba with prawn and both with chocolate topping. -.- salute to the uncle who invented this dish) Lol, I couldn't stop thinking abt the children's situation and I was kinda upset. hmm but I felt better after chatting with people, thanks to Facebook and Whatsapp XD I really hope that they can lead a normal life many years later, it's hurt to relate the kids as potential AIDS patients, sigh. May God bless them, now and always.

Rush

  College life is kinda moving in a faster pace these days. I need to rest lol, ok ok I did have my own sweet time during weekend tho :3 Lecturers are all racing with time zzz, it's not that they teach super fast, it's just that they don't give us time to digest anymore. Once fin this page, then proceed to next page, then next chapter. So ganjiong lol. I'm gonna fin my AS syllabus for chem and pure math by this week. I'm sure other subjects will catch up sooner or later...AS exam's gonna be next year May -.- and I'm gonna start learning A2 by this month. =.=

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Stayed back for bio assignment today, I'm in the backstage team so yeah, had fun preparing all the props XD Made some 'blood' for video shooting too, thanks to Mevin lol. Our topic is Malaria btw :3  

Listener

It's good to release everything out, you'd feel much better =) Lol, sometimes I felt so useless because all I did was just listen, listen and listen. I don't really know how to comfort people, perhaps it's because I couldn't relate myself in their situations and I seldom asked them abt their problems unless they wanted to tell me. Oh well, I think they felt the same so I would only become a listener once in a blue moon.

Am I a good listener? Idk. I have no idea. I tend to add my opinion in the midst of the conversation, not sure whether others like it or not (I doubt so xp), the words come out almost naturally lol. For those who willingly share their feelings with me, I am very grateful, it's like I'm so trustworthy that they are able to pour everything out. Thank you.

I hope I've made u felt better. 

updates

  I've abandoned this page for ages lol not that kuazhang la but still -.- Ok let me update abt my college life ba, I think my Mac's gonna rust since I seldom touch it. Poor thing, forever alone sigh. 

  Soooo, where should I start...hmmmmm. Oh nvm here it goes: I love my class SN14C, I lagi love my classmates XD hahah they're all nice, had lotsa fun filming advertisements with them for group presentation, sem exam just fin on tues, got back all my Science paper, unexpectedly scored highest for Physics among the 3 subjects (I really thought I'd fail lol), get to maintain my scholarship whooohooo, want to play badminton badly, drive to college by myself, Chemistry Mr Siva taught so fast T.T, can't wait for them to organize singapore trip etc etc etc.

I feel sho sleepy now idky I got tired easily nowadays. Forgive my messed up post coz I'm in a blur state. Oh ya Shiern came over today =D and what else ah,,,merdeka!

Blacksper

  We named you as Blacksper. Black- my grandmother's dog which was super good...it died. Sper- we used to love 'Casper' the Cartoon show. A cute naughty ghost haha.

  When the first time I met you, your size scared the hell out of me. That time I was only seven years old, but your height had already reached my waist. Through out all these years, I was still afraid of you though I knew you were good to us. I only dared to touch your head, and sometimes your silky fur through the gate.

  

  Everyday, you would stay in ur cage and the maid would let you out at night. I've had always felt guilty for not able to play with you, I knew I shouldn't, but my phobia stopped me.

  3 years ago, we bought Naruto and we started to have the guts to have close contact with you. Luckily you and Naruto get along well with each other haha. Naruto's like your grandson from the way you guys communicate xp. You're the steady, mature, smart type but he is the opposite =P.

  Thank you, for being such a loyal dog. You're our bodyguard, with your presence we felt safe coz you shoo-ed all the strangers away. Naruto can never replace you :) 

  It's such a painful thing to see you suffer . However, I would never agree to inject those chemicals into your body and let you die, unless you told us to. Looking at all the wounds, it teared my heart. Few weeks ago you couldn't walk anymore. Doctor told us you had cancer, but fortunately he was wrong. Those tears I shed for you that day...from sorrow to happy, and happy to sorrow. Doctor  said you couldn't last long, the wounds were too big, plus the skin disease and your age, it worsen the situation.

  For 12 years you have accompanied us, taking good care of our safety. You're like a family member, not just any ordinary pet dog. You have the purest soul, I hope you can go to heaven. I know you can.
For dog's age you are already 84, like our grandpa dy haha...... Blacksper, thank you so so so soooooooooooo much and..... I am sorry, We are sorry for not being good owners. You'll always live within our hearts. It's time to let you go.

  Good bye =')

  R.I.P

  

Rest to go further

 Had 5 months holidays after spm. Lol, cancelled the 3 months of national service, I still had 2 months to really enjoy  my lifeless days. Some of my friends started their college life in January, some found their part time jobs, some slacked all the way, rotting at home lol xp.

  At first I felt super sien after I came back from NS. I watched drama whole day, read story books and manga, accompanied mom to office (with my drama :P), yum cha, driving lessons......that's how I spent my holiday haha. I did complain to my mom about it, but she said: 'if you don't enjoy now, you won't have this chance until you finished your A Levels, when college starts you'll  regret for not appreciating this break.' I thought she was right, so I stopped complaining and slacked to the fullest :) 

  Ok now it's been a week since college started, my lecturers are good, friends are nice, food memang (Y)... but it's abit stressful coz all the teachers wanna push us to study. I don't hate it though, coz I miss studying (yes, this is the truth-.-) <<<nerd wannabe xp. The topics are quite interesting, way deeper than spm...surprisingly, I'm actually having fun.

  I wonder, if I start studying straight after spm, would I have this 'ohm' to study? I bet not. Thanks to the long break (ok it's not very long, but just nice to cool down my mind and to relax gao gao), It made me realized that studying can be enjoyable. We are the blessed one because not everyone has the opportunity to study. 

  During orientation week, a senior told us:

'The reason to study is to study for those who cannot.'

Well said senior :)

  

  

Forever JKM

  I've never regretted knowing this bunch of friends =) I had lotsa memories with them, more than I thought when I looked back those photos. They played a major role in my school life...and now, they've become part of my life. During all these years, of course we had arguments, we faced problems,  we emo etc, but much to my satisfaction, our friendship stayed strong, and even stronger.

 The 1st farewell was for Timmy and it wasn't the last one. Since all of us had graduated, we started to choose our own path which lead us to different future. We used to meet almost everyday, then once a couple of weeks, followed by months, and finally...years. 

  Some of us wanted to study abroad, and some preferred to stay. We will be separated, it's just a matter of time. Lol, kinda hard to believe the day when we scattered around the world. 

  Don't really know how to express my feelings, so yeah, all of you take care, go ahead and pursue your dreams, never give up easily in life, keep in touch...lol, because you sakais and sohpohs meant alot to me, do have a great future and live a happy life =)

Thank you, all of you =)

Diarrhea

This is the 3rd day dy fml-.- zzz I don't even know how it started. Food poisoning? Nah I'll vomit if that's the case (experienced ppl talking here heh).

Just imagine you have to go toilet for more than five times a day, it sucks. Not gonna see doctor for this small matter, just stay near the toilet can dy 😐

Gonna let my immune system work harder haha. Fighting!

iPhone 5

  As you all can see from the title, I bought a new hp =) This is my 1st time owning a smartphone, so yeah I'm happy. Fyi, I was using a China phone, 'Chang Jiang' for about 2 years ever since I lost my UPSR present, a Sony Ericsson W660i.  T.T

  I'm a beginner in using Smartphone, abit cacat lol. I took a few moments to figure out : 'where's the Contact icon?', 'What's the "data" that qiu mentioned abt?', 'how to switch of 3G?' etc etc. =P I installed some apps and could't stop exploring Apps Store since then haha. 

  Erm, I finally joined Twitter, Instagram, Whatsapp and so on. Lol, I never knew my friends would be soooooo excited when they found out I changed my hp. Most of them were like 'YAYYYYY FINALLY CAN TEXT YOU FOR FREEEE!!!', 'I was damn surprised when I saw "Casserene Yeow followed you"', ' WAHHH SOMEONE MAJU LIAO WORRRR' bla bla bla. All positive responds heeheee =D

  I hope I would lose this kind of enthusiasm towards my hp soon coz it's super addictive and I think it's not good if I don't learn how to control. STEADY LAAAA!!!XP College's gonna start soon weyh, heard Cambridge A Level isn't easy, have to study hard >.< Jia You! 

Qing Ming

  Went back kampung ytd, celebrated Easter =) Woke up early in the morning to 'Sao Mu'. Lol, the 1st destination damn 'ulu' -.- Errr, my grandfather's grandfather. That place is just...haih. When I arrived at the estate, I was like : eh, I thought we're going to cemetery geh? Nvm...I just followed the adults can dy. Maybe we're early so there was no other ppl except for 6 of us...ONLY. Kay fine, where's the grave? Ah ma was counting the palm trees, and when she pointed at the 5th one, she said: okay this is the place. Zzz, I didn't see anything other than trees lo, behind the palm trees macam jungle like that, not even an opening how to go in wor. So here comes a parang, our weapon of the day =P The adults started to chop off the branches and vines that blocked our way. Actually I didn't know where we're heading. I'm a good follower heh. Ah ma, uncle and dad went there before so they knew the place. They were pointing at all kinds of directions which led us to the place. Damn lotsa mosquitos weyh. Me and bro walked behind, shooing away those blood suckers. It's like jungle trekking but worse than that because at least you can see the pathway when u joined the school jungle trekking. We're like entering a virgin jungle lol -.- Luckily the place was quite near...so we found the grave =P Still got one more grave but idk who lai de =/ The graves were surrounded by trees, it's kinda spooky la coz only 6 ppl, summore the grave super old dy the tile on top also broken jor. After we cleaned that place, ciao to next destination.

  This time we're going to a real cemetery lol, the place where my great grandfather and great grandmother rest in peace. They're in separate graves though. My great grandfather's grave got one small rectangle gravestone jek, the words all gone dy (I heard he was killed by the Japanese) . My great grandmother's grave like those normal ones la. Ciao again to out last destination.

 Went to another cemetery, and here lies my beloved grandfather. Haha, my eyes became watery the moment I saw his picture. 2.9.2010...I could still rmb the date. Hello ah gong, I came to visit you. I didn't speak much, there's nothing much I could say anyway. Sometimes some words are better left unspoken =) I kept on flashing back those memories I had with him...lol, kk stop. 

  Soooo, this was a very good experience for me. My mom told me that 'qing ming' was a very big day for the Chinese in olden days. They would try their best to balik kampung, buy train tickets la, carpool la etc...unlike now, this festival is not that important anymore. Today, with just a simple sentence : " I'm busy" , "I've tuition", or sometimes ignore je, anyone can skip 'qing ming' easily. This tradition should be kept alive. Action speaks louder than words, k la I write so much also no use if I don't do it, hopefully I won't eat my words. =P

PLKN =)

  Soooooo, I'm finally back =) Thinking about those memories in national service made me wonder how did I actually spend my time there. Every morning there's PT pagi, which I don't really like because I had to wake up early -.- Oh and for your information, we had 6 meals a day =) The food there boleh tahan la, at least it was edible. Talking about activities, the main ones were all squeezed in last few weeks due to the bad weather (raining almost everyday leh ). M16, wirajaya, kembara halangan, latihan air, carnival sukan etc etc. I got darker after each activity -.- Many said that I still look fair but if you compare with my original skin tone, you will see the difference.

One of my favourite moments =P

  My PLKN friends are all very nice to me =) I love my dorm haha...P2 rocks, my favourite place in campsite. There's this girl who's very close with me, I met her since the first day. Her name is Jia Yin, both of us have many things in common and we get along well with each other, so yeah. Andddd, after Chinese New Year only we found out that we are somehow related, her mother is my great grandmother's god daughter, something liddat. She found out 1st because she went to my grandmother's house during cny. I didn't see her because I left Melaka in the morning. Fate =)

Dorm P2

P2 buddies =)

Jia Yin =D

  Oh ya, I'm glad to attend kelas agama because I've learnt a lot. Thank you very much Pastor Samuel. You made me understand more about Christianity and of course, deepening my faith in God, making me grow. I love the way you teach because you taught us things that may seem easy, but with depth.

Praise the Lord =)

  Only in national service, you could see some rare scenes, such as: the jurulatih will 'tsunami' (create a big mess) our dorm if our cleanliness was not up to their expectations, throw the slippers, boots,  pillows, pull out the blankets etc etc (luckily our dorm didn't kena before xp)...Guys rushing back to their dorms when it started raining, shouting: HUJAN!!! BAJU SAYAAAA!!!!! More ganjiong than girls lol =P... Everyone singing Malay songs no matter what race they are...

We use pail to cook maggie... Yes, the pail which is used for washing clothes de -.-

  I'm also quite satisfied with my achievements. It went smoothly with a flow yet it was unintentional. I first started with Ketua Dorm, just because I stood in front when we baris -.- Then I proceed to Pen Ketua Company Alpha (fyi, guys will automatically become ketua and girls become penolong). Just a week before CNY, my ketua got caught of smoking, so yeah, he kena fired and I jadi Ketua instead. Zzzzz, NOT EASY-,- I admit I didn't do well as a ketua company =/ It's not that my members are not good, they just don't have that kind of team spirit and semangat. There are pros and cons la, less quarrel, more peace :3 Got Anugerah Khas Komandan, well...I'm pleased =)

Majlis Penyerahan Pangkat =')

  It's a good thing to see all of us still so hyper talking about PLKN memories in Facebook =P And I'm happy to receive all the 'Jom, pergi Yum Cha' texts and 'Hello, you macam mana?' calls from my friends from different gender, race and religion. Thank you all of you, including my family, they'll always try to make it on every Sunday, I'm blessed. I will treasure these sweet memories, I M 4 U!

National Service

  Done packing. Tmr is the day. Lol, I'm abit nervous, excited, curious...mixed feelings haha. This will be the 1st time I leave home for so long. 3 months =/ The previous record was 3 weeks and I'm gonna break it soon.

  I'm not sure how I'm gonna feel when I reach the campsite. Many people asked me what I miss the most but I couldn't answer them. I just don't know. Family? Friends? Macbook? Toilet? Lol, I probably gonna miss everything here while enjoying myself there. XP Such a contradiction lol.

  Sooooo..........Don't miss me too much ^^ *perasan* kk ignore me =P 

  I'm all prepared =)

  Bye !

  

The King 2 Hearts

  My last korean drama before I go to NS, no regrets =)

  I wanted to watch this since I came back from Big Bang's concert. Watching random videos on Youtube and found out about it. Lol, Fong was in my room too but that time she was still obsessed with 'To The Beautiful You". Haha, I could still rmb her running away from my room and told me she would not step in unless I stop watching those tempting drama trailers ^^

  Anyway, out of so many 'The King 2 Hearts' videos out there, the moment I saw this (the one below), I told myself: I'm gonna watch this drama for sure. idky. 

  Lol, it has been a while since I last cried for a drama.  I always go for those happy-ish dramas because they can guarantee me a good ending. (fyi, I don't like bad endings, so yeah) Lol, but those dramas would never make me cry, because their story lines were too perfect and wonderful. 

  Hmm, this drama was slightly different than the ones I used to watch. It has less romance (errm, not thaaaat much compared with others), more serious conflicts (duh, conflicts among nations / countries, ofcoz serious la) and...more death.

  I like the characters in this drama, the good ones la lol. Other than the main characters, there's this guy I really admire. Eun Shi Kyung (his name in the drama). I'm not sure about his attitude in real life but in this drama, his has a nice personality. Although he is boring, dull and inflexible, but this man is loyal, to the king and of course, the princess. A strong-willed soldier, passionate in his work etc etc etc. Ahhh, damn hard to find this type of guy nowadays -.- kk this is just a drama, he is not real T.T

  

   Lee Jae Ha. King of South Korea. An immature trash before he learned to become a better person. 

  Kim Hang Ah. Queen of South Korea. A North Korean.  A skillful soldier in the Special Forces. Lol, and one of her training was to kill the king ( the drama didn't highlight this part though =/)

  Haha, luckily I watched this before NS because now I feel damn semangat lol. To become a respectful soldier in the future isn't too bad right?  But reality is reality, I would only allow myself to fantasize about becoming one, I still prefer healing. 

                                     

Peace. =)