Now only I realise that Im a coward. Everytime I heard someone mentioned abt the end of the world, I'll have nightmares. Not that Im afraid of death(actually, I am),but Im afraid of the way I die. Maybe I watch too many movies, I just can't get rid of those fearful scenes. For the whole day, I'll be imagining myself in that situation and figure out what will happen to me at last. Th results are usually negative, which makes me moody and down. I know, I mustn't give up hope no matter what, and dont be panic, think hard to rescue myself. Yes, my mom always reminds me about this. The problem is, am I strong enough in both mental and physical? Can I stand the pain? These are all unknowns.
I DON'T WANT TO DIE!!! I have so many things that I wanted to do. I am still young, I have my ambition! Please, give me a chance to live. I know all living things are born to die. I dont have superpowers and Im not a vampire. I AM A TINY, MORTAL AND FRAGILE HUMAN BEING.
In the end death will still approach me but Im not prepared, yet. I want to die in peace, not full of regrets. When the time comes, I will accept it with open arms but not NOW.
I cant predict what will happen in the future, I might be a victim someday, who knows? I hope I can spend my life with lots of memorable and happy events. I want nothing to bother me untl the day I close my eyes forever.
