Wishing for a better tomorrow

*sweep dusts away*

it's been a while... X) 

Today was a day of emotions. Got our paper back and generally our class did not perform well, we're at the down side compared with A and B class. For once, the atmosphere in our class was gloomy. 

Lol. Not a happy day. Not at all. 

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I'm sorry if I screwed up anything. Thanks for trying. I'm glad, really. For the troubles I've brought, I apologize. But that's not gonna keep me from trying. Again and again :) I will always anticipate for the day when the seal is finally broken. 

Wake Home

That was my first time celebrating Halloween and it turned out to be meaningful. If I wasn't a leo, I wouldn't have experienced this. I hope the kids enjoyed themselves, at least I did :) I was told that they are HIV + patients before I visited Wake Home, and the worst part was, they didn't know about it. Lol.

They just looked like any other normal kids but they are somehow different :( Before meeting them, we had to choose a kid and buy a watch for him/her...I chose a down syndrome patient. Her name is Vinothin and she is the youngest among the children in wake home, 7 years old. I selected her because I thought the others wouldn't choose her, I was right. Hmm... I didn't get to communicate with her lol she didn't understand at all. Saliva dripped all over her with an unpleasant smell, hmm...and she threw my halloween present in a perfect curved motion when I gave it to her. Zzz, to be honest, I was abit disappointed but I know I couldn't expect more. I left early and had my dinner with dad outside (fyi, the food there was...ugh...meant for draculas XP, their appearance were so 'tempting' hahas, green soba with prawn and both with chocolate topping. -.- salute to the uncle who invented this dish) Lol, I couldn't stop thinking abt the children's situation and I was kinda upset. hmm but I felt better after chatting with people, thanks to Facebook and Whatsapp XD I really hope that they can lead a normal life many years later, it's hurt to relate the kids as potential AIDS patients, sigh. May God bless them, now and always.

Rush

  College life is kinda moving in a faster pace these days. I need to rest lol, ok ok I did have my own sweet time during weekend tho :3 Lecturers are all racing with time zzz, it's not that they teach super fast, it's just that they don't give us time to digest anymore. Once fin this page, then proceed to next page, then next chapter. So ganjiong lol. I'm gonna fin my AS syllabus for chem and pure math by this week. I'm sure other subjects will catch up sooner or later...AS exam's gonna be next year May -.- and I'm gonna start learning A2 by this month. =.=

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Stayed back for bio assignment today, I'm in the backstage team so yeah, had fun preparing all the props XD Made some 'blood' for video shooting too, thanks to Mevin lol. Our topic is Malaria btw :3  

Listener

It's good to release everything out, you'd feel much better =) Lol, sometimes I felt so useless because all I did was just listen, listen and listen. I don't really know how to comfort people, perhaps it's because I couldn't relate myself in their situations and I seldom asked them abt their problems unless they wanted to tell me. Oh well, I think they felt the same so I would only become a listener once in a blue moon.

Am I a good listener? Idk. I have no idea. I tend to add my opinion in the midst of the conversation, not sure whether others like it or not (I doubt so xp), the words come out almost naturally lol. For those who willingly share their feelings with me, I am very grateful, it's like I'm so trustworthy that they are able to pour everything out. Thank you.

I hope I've made u felt better. 

updates

  I've abandoned this page for ages lol not that kuazhang la but still -.- Ok let me update abt my college life ba, I think my Mac's gonna rust since I seldom touch it. Poor thing, forever alone sigh. 

  Soooo, where should I start...hmmmmm. Oh nvm here it goes: I love my class SN14C, I lagi love my classmates XD hahah they're all nice, had lotsa fun filming advertisements with them for group presentation, sem exam just fin on tues, got back all my Science paper, unexpectedly scored highest for Physics among the 3 subjects (I really thought I'd fail lol), get to maintain my scholarship whooohooo, want to play badminton badly, drive to college by myself, Chemistry Mr Siva taught so fast T.T, can't wait for them to organize singapore trip etc etc etc.

I feel sho sleepy now idky I got tired easily nowadays. Forgive my messed up post coz I'm in a blur state. Oh ya Shiern came over today =D and what else ah,,,merdeka!

Blacksper

  We named you as Blacksper. Black- my grandmother's dog which was super good...it died. Sper- we used to love 'Casper' the Cartoon show. A cute naughty ghost haha.

  When the first time I met you, your size scared the hell out of me. That time I was only seven years old, but your height had already reached my waist. Through out all these years, I was still afraid of you though I knew you were good to us. I only dared to touch your head, and sometimes your silky fur through the gate.

  

  Everyday, you would stay in ur cage and the maid would let you out at night. I've had always felt guilty for not able to play with you, I knew I shouldn't, but my phobia stopped me.

  3 years ago, we bought Naruto and we started to have the guts to have close contact with you. Luckily you and Naruto get along well with each other haha. Naruto's like your grandson from the way you guys communicate xp. You're the steady, mature, smart type but he is the opposite =P.

  Thank you, for being such a loyal dog. You're our bodyguard, with your presence we felt safe coz you shoo-ed all the strangers away. Naruto can never replace you :) 

  It's such a painful thing to see you suffer . However, I would never agree to inject those chemicals into your body and let you die, unless you told us to. Looking at all the wounds, it teared my heart. Few weeks ago you couldn't walk anymore. Doctor told us you had cancer, but fortunately he was wrong. Those tears I shed for you that day...from sorrow to happy, and happy to sorrow. Doctor  said you couldn't last long, the wounds were too big, plus the skin disease and your age, it worsen the situation.

  For 12 years you have accompanied us, taking good care of our safety. You're like a family member, not just any ordinary pet dog. You have the purest soul, I hope you can go to heaven. I know you can.
For dog's age you are already 84, like our grandpa dy haha...... Blacksper, thank you so so so soooooooooooo much and..... I am sorry, We are sorry for not being good owners. You'll always live within our hearts. It's time to let you go.

  Good bye =')

  R.I.P

  

Rest to go further

 Had 5 months holidays after spm. Lol, cancelled the 3 months of national service, I still had 2 months to really enjoy  my lifeless days. Some of my friends started their college life in January, some found their part time jobs, some slacked all the way, rotting at home lol xp.

  At first I felt super sien after I came back from NS. I watched drama whole day, read story books and manga, accompanied mom to office (with my drama :P), yum cha, driving lessons......that's how I spent my holiday haha. I did complain to my mom about it, but she said: 'if you don't enjoy now, you won't have this chance until you finished your A Levels, when college starts you'll  regret for not appreciating this break.' I thought she was right, so I stopped complaining and slacked to the fullest :) 

  Ok now it's been a week since college started, my lecturers are good, friends are nice, food memang (Y)... but it's abit stressful coz all the teachers wanna push us to study. I don't hate it though, coz I miss studying (yes, this is the truth-.-) <<<nerd wannabe xp. The topics are quite interesting, way deeper than spm...surprisingly, I'm actually having fun.

  I wonder, if I start studying straight after spm, would I have this 'ohm' to study? I bet not. Thanks to the long break (ok it's not very long, but just nice to cool down my mind and to relax gao gao), It made me realized that studying can be enjoyable. We are the blessed one because not everyone has the opportunity to study. 

  During orientation week, a senior told us:

'The reason to study is to study for those who cannot.'

Well said senior :)